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What I was told – the continuing search for internal peace

Dahlia Jade BireDAHLIA BIRE

An entry in the 2015 Rivers Award
for Writing on Peace & Harmony

THE fear was all he felt. He cringed from the sting of the slap and the whiff of alcohol.

Only half awake in the morning’s early hours he perhaps wondered why someone would do this to him.

It was his community and he was a respected leader.

Earlier this year, my beloved uncle was murdered in his village. He was a cheerful, loving and humble young man. His short life was taken by heartless and cruel people.

Because of the remote location, a proper post-mortem wasn’t carried out; the deteriorating corpse laid to rest before health authorities and police arrived at the crime scene.

The suspect is on the run and there are no witnesses. The grief is unresolved but the family has not retaliated.

Murder is totally horrifying because another person’s action has taken an innocent life. That this should happen is devastating and shocking. It leaves the immediate family and others bewildered and scarred.

How can one find peace such a situation?

Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid” - John 14:27

“God cannot give us a happiness and peace apart from Himself, because it is not there. There is no such thing” - C S Lewis

I was told put God first, work hard and be good to people and you will live in peace. I am compassionate and caring.

My mom is a nurse and she worked in one of the most remote areas in PNG. She dedicated her life to these people despite the challenges she faced day to day.

Now I understood why my mom devoted her working life in way: she achieved peace deep in her heart to serve her calling.

And her passion in helping people and her skill in saving lives inspired me to be like her.

I entered the University of Papua New Guinea and completed an undergraduate degree. Then, like other young Papua New Guineans, I struggled to find work in a competitive world.

Eventually I won a job with a mining company. I worked from five until five every day for 15 days then got a break. It was during this time that I knew I could work hard but realised I needed to do something that I was passionate about.

I had to change course in life before it was too late and I would live with regret. So I look forward to the next part of my life where, if given the opportunity, I will continue to strive as a better citizen of this nation to make things a little better one step at a time.

I have come to better understand and appreciate the real value in life is through helping the most needy and vulnerable people. At the end of life’s journey, when I look back, I want to be satisfied with what I did with my life.

“Try not to become a man of success, but rather try to become a man of value” - Albert Einstein

And so the three different experiences.

My late uncle lived peacefully yet was brutally murdered. We are still trying to find peace to forgive his perpetuators.

My Mom found peace deep within herself by serving the call. She contributed in a small way to the development of Papua New Guinea.

And I believe I still haven’t found peace deep within but I am searching.

I guess once I find my purpose in life and start living it, only then that I will acquire the true meaning of peace. I am caught in between trying to define the true meaning of life in itself.

Actually, it wasn’t what I was told.


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`Robin Lillicrapp

A good read well representing some of life's conundrums.
For what it may be worth, the link to the following .pdf volume may lead to answers regarding peace and assurance:

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