I write these lines from a vantage point,
Looking back on my recent past,
And try to connect the dots in my life.
During my pain, I was angry at you,
And questioned your abiding providence,
And your infinite goodness sublime.
But now from this vantage point,
After my pain has eased and evaporated,
I bask in the goodness life afforded me -
Dear God, I want to say thank you.
I thank you with a heart full of gratitude,
And a soul aflame with joy unspeakable.
Thank you for the difficult days,
For the heaviness in my chest,
For the rocky waves as I sailed.
Thank you for the darkness – the missing stars,
For the closed doors, the no’s, the endings,
For pain that no earthly balm could soothe.
Thank you for giving me more than I can take,
For showing me my own demons,
for redirecting me to the mirror, for making me see myself.
Thank you that I wasn’t buried but just planted,
at this very place of pain and discomfort.
It was here I experienced the greatest growth.
Thank you for the bad days, God.
the bad days that made all the good days’ worth it.
I have learnt more in my pain than prosperity.
The seeds of my success are planted in my past failures.
My best stories have birthed from overcoming my greatest pain.
And gold of wisdom minted from gut wrenching sting.
Thank God for the bad days of my recent past,
For in my pain, I caught a glimpse of your grandeur,
For in my pain, I found, that when I am weak, I am strong.